What is it about indecision that makes my heart race? I make myself crazy and work really hard at avoiding making a decision. How many calories can you burn staying in one place? It seems to me that I should be a size two by now. I put so much energy into not moving at all. The internal conversations are really an exercise in futility because, in the end, I don’t even listen to myself or….maybe I listen to myself too much. (see what I mean)
As a christian and believer in one creator of all things, I seek God’s will in my life. Ultimately that is the goal but I worry sometimes that I am talking to myself again and I cannot hear the spirit. I wallow in fear and uncertainty. I stand still. I am afraid to take a leap of faith because I tend to be a bit impulsive and go for what makes me feel better in the moment but I have come to see that even that is just another way of avoiding.
Maybe the answer is in making a choice and taking God with me. Maybe God is there blessing what I choose. I am really o.k. most of the time but sometimes I want to know the clear cut answer and maybe sometimes there is more than one path to choose from that will ultimately bring me peace of mind. I am ready for that! Thanks for stopping by.