Sorry I was gone for a few days but I was really in a slump. I was really tired and definitely uninspired. I did get my guitar out for all of about 5 minutes, just until number 4 fell off his bike and skinned his elbow pretty badly. Imagine me running down the street guitar in one hand, bleeding child in the other. Looking back, it does paint a funny picture but in the moment I was a bit exasperated.
So, my new approach to such difficult times, do something ultra practical. I decided today, that I am going to look into setting up a bank account so that I can start saving for studio time or what ever financial needs that present themselves in my attempt to make this CD. It seems like a good idea right? I really don’t have any expendable cash but maybe I can put away the smallest amounts. Maybe just taking that action will bring me the abundance of cash I will need to do this in the way that I want to. I am trying to do things differently and saving money has never come easily and I don’t usually try very hard or stay committed to the cause for which I am saving. Life usually gets in the way.
I don’t know about you all but I can only be focused on something for so long. When it comes to saving money, I tend to give in and spend the money saved on other things. Sometimes it is things we need (kids shoes, groceries etc.) but some times I get discouraged and think “well I’m probably not going to be able to save that much anyway, so what’s 25 bucks for pizza? I’m too tired to cook.” That is a biggie for me. I retreat into my old ways because the task at hand seems insurmountable and don’t I deserve something nice? I work really hard but I lose sight of what the “true” reward is and give up. I am all about setting these crazy goals, things that will take a long time to reach, and then expect to reach them in a few weeks. Perhaps it’s time to take a new road, one that I have not traveled, if I want to go someplace different than where I’ve been. I guess I have to start out small and actually reach a goal or two to know what success feels like. Maybe then, I will want that just as much as the thing I want to achieve and who knows where that might lead???
A CD perhaps?