I had an opportunity to sing a mini private concert for some friends of mine last night. They were probably my first audience many moons ago. When ever I had written something new I would call them up and ask to come over to play it for them. I have to say it was quite wonderful to be able to share new songs with them again. It was late and I knew that I should have been heading home but I just couldn’t tear myself away. “Please play the one you wrote for you wedding” is how it all started and one thing led to another. I fell into performing like an old pair of shoes that I had lost and they still felt great.
I have been thinking about performing for some time now. I don’t know if I really have the stamina for it but last night it came so naturally and I didn’t feel depleted in the end but invigorated. It felt like I had gotten a transfusion and found new energy. Maybe it was the coke (soda) I had with my late dinner …all that sugar and caffeine…..but I think it was just the idea of playing for a real audience.
I have to tell you the my friends are the type of people who really know and appreciate great music so their opinions weigh heavily for me. They also know the joy and the terror of performing and were so gracious about having me play.
I am so proud of these new songs. I feel a little bit like I do with my kids when the holidays roll around and I get to parade them around in their new clothes and show them off a little. The older my kids get however, it is becoming more about getting them to perform as well. I am so proud of the song writers they are already turning out to be. They all (even #4 who is all of 5) love to sing and write songs. Some of them are more comfortable sharing with the outside world than others but I think a little bit of that comes with age. I sometimes worry that I have set them on a path that, at times, can be quite frustrating and down right painful, but I don’t think they would have it any other way. You can’t stop it from happening if you know it is what you were born to do. It is my bliss and it will always be. It would be great if I could make a little money doing it but for now my joy is playing for an audience of 4 sitting on the hearth in my dear friends living room. I am content and grateful.