I have a mountain. Literally speaking it is not mine but figuratively, I own every inch of it. Everyday I walk about a mile and a half straight up hill into Griffith park. As hills go, it is quite steep and while not treacherous, challenging. I pass lots of people with dogs along the way and I do mean pass. I often challenge myself to pass them up as we cross the same land marks. I walk a total of three miles in about 40 minutes. I have been doing it for a few weeks now and am still quite surprised that it hasn’t gotten any easier. I try to walk in the cool of the morning and on an empty stomach. I don’t want anything to weigh me down.
My mountain has come to represent so much in my life. I talk to myself as I go along. I have chosen not to use any ear buds pumping music into my head and distracting me from the task at hand. I noticed today that most of what I say to myself on this morning jaunt is positive. I have become quite used to the negative banter that seems to be on an eternal loop in my mind but not on my morning trek. I say things like ” You are doing it!” sometimes I give myself a pat on the back for not giving into the little voice that says “cut it short today….you have laundry.” I don’t give into panic about limited time or too many other things to do. This is “my time” I will not give it away. I was saying to myself just yesterday while I was really struggling “don’t quit now. You will have let yourself down and you deserve this.” I cannot overstate this…..this is not my normal voice. It leaves me wondering “Why now? Why here? Why this? Why don’t I employ this method in the rest of my life. I do I break the promises I make to myself? I have decided not to over think it but to just relish in that 40 minutes a day when I tell myself all the right things.
I will however, try and apply it to the life of a CD. I climb the mountain and keep my eye on the next land mark and I know the translation is quite clear. I just have to reevaluate the land marks. I will reach the top of this mountain and I feel renewed and recharged. Stay tuned!